The bottled up confusion and dread that creeps up inside me and threatens to drown me...i must remind myself that it is but a fleeting emotion; one that will fade. The fears i have though are but a step from reality. i am high; i am drunk but when has that been my escape? im not sure. i have had those moments when all that i was and could be; the anxiety and tension was so great that i turned to drugs but what is it that compels me